I spent most of my life shoving my feelings down.
If I felt sad, I pushed it down. Angry, scared, hurt, traumatized… down the feelings went.
Then a few things happened recently that triggered all the shoved-down emotions to bubble up to the surface. They spilled out so hard until my body reacted by getting sick. Pushed to its limits, the vertigo hit.
The underlying cause may have been an injury from a decades-old car accident, but what brought my symptoms to the surface was the chaos (and subsequent anxiety) I’d been dealing with over the past 4 years since moving to Maui.
And for that I’m grateful.
Because if I hadn’t been put in a state of mental turmoil, I never would have started the healing process of both my emotional pain and my upper cervical injury.
I learned to really feel my feelings, even though it was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do. And what came out of that work was clarity and a sense of transformation. I still have more to process, but I definitely grew a ton last year.
Maybe this speaks to you, too? If so, I encourage you to:
Feel your feelings as they happen. Reach down to the ones you’ve buried. Process them. You will feel a sense of inner peace.