If you’re going through a dark time right now, I want you to know that there is light, even if you can’t see it yet. I’ve been where you are.
One morning a few years ago, I woke up and found myself curled up at the bottom of a deep dark hole of depression where I could barely breathe, wondering what happened. Wondering how I got there. And not really caring if I ever saw light again. I didn’t even realize it at the time, but so many things had happened over the years that pushed me there. Little by little, until I hit the bottom.
All of a sudden, someone who thrived in the spotlight for years as a TV health reporter and model wanted to hide from the world. I couldn’t stand to look at myself in the mirror. I felt hideous and hated myself. I thought this would never stop. That I would never feel good. That the only way to stop hurting was to sleep so deeply that I wouldn’t wake up. I had fleeting thoughts of suicide.
I finally found the strength to go to therapy, and get the help I desperately needed. It was a long tough climb for me out of that dark hole. I kept slipping back down. Months of raw excruciating work in therapy helped me to pull my way up, and I eventually started to see a glimmer of light. Slowly, it kept getting brighter.
I want you to know that you too will find that light. Please don’t be ashamed to get help. If you have any questions about my journey, please reach out to me here.
And if you want more information about mental health help in general, my partner Mental Health America has so much valuable information, including where to find support groups, referrals for mental health providers, and where to get affordable treatment if you don’t have insurance.